That's the sentence that scares me. Not "injured." Not "taking time off." Used to.
For fifteen years, running was the first thing anyone knew about me. It was who I was in my own head. The 6am miles before the house woke up. The Saturday long run that was sacred. The pace I could hold that earned me a little respect in my group. Take that away and it's not like losing a hobby. It's like a load-bearing wall coming out of who you are.
And it's been going quietly, one small thing at a time:
I stopped opening Strava. My own times, my own segments — it started to feel like scrolling through a museum built for a guy I'm not sure exists anymore.
The shoes still sit by the door. I step over them every morning. I haven't moved them, because moving them means admitting something.
My race calendar is empty for the first time in fifteen years. No bib to train toward. I tell people I'm "taking a break." They know that's not what this is.
And my training partners have pulled ahead. They're still out there every Saturday. I'm not. The gap between the guy I was and the guy reading their messages gets a little wider every week.
Nobody sat me down and told me I wasn't a runner anymore. It just... faded. And I watched it fade, from my own bed, phone in my hand, not answering.